I have very strong feelings about family. I am having a lot of problems with my family. Not really with my children but with their extended families and my parents.
First we will do the parents.
I feel extremely bad that I live so far away from them. I know I am not the only child, I have two (2) older and two (2) younger brothers and sisters, but I am the one that is the furthest away. I have a brother in North Carolina, a sister in Michigan, a sister in Montana and a brother in the same town my parents live in. I understand that we all have our own life’s now but still the feelings are there, I would say the closest feeling is guilt because they have always been there for me and I am not there for them. My mother has been ill and in and out of the hospital. She was put into a nursing home and fell and the fall caused bleed on the brain, then she had a stroke. Or she had the stroke and then fell it is up in the air which came first. Kind of like the chicken or the egg. Since my mother is no longer living at their home my father is having problems, he wants his wife home where she belongs. He feels no one should be able to tell him that he cant live with his wife as man and wife. They will be celebrating their 65th anniversary
Sept 1st 2010, it amazes me that some people can stay together and stay in love for that long.


Now to my children and their families.
My children are great they can pains in the butt I know but I am sure everyone can.
I have 2 children’s that are mine in my heart born from another mother but will always be mine.
I have 3 of my own that I carried and gave birth to. My oldest son is called Timber Wolff he live and works in New Orleans Louisiana. He is 36 and engaged to a nice young lady. They have their problems he works, she is looking, they live with friends. He is an unpublished screen writer. He has some of his plays done while in college. But nothing since. I have read his stuff and if that kind of stuff is what you like it is good. He writes about the monsters that live under your bed or in your closet where the portal to another plan is. I guess the apple didn’t fall to far from the tree there….. I believe in things like that but don’t write about it. Timbers natural father never stepped up to the plate. I guess he was as scared as I was when you are young and your girlfriend gets knocked up. He said things that hurt the heart and I left and had Timber on my own. He looks like his dad. His dads family won’t believe that Ken (Timber) is their blood but I know, and that is all that matters to me. Oney just will never know the best thing that ever came from him. But I will.


My daughter is Great, she is a nurse in Wisconsin, her husband teaches at a community college. She has had her trials in life. She has been fighting a rare disease that eat her bones from her shoulders up. Her jaw bone mostly. She was molested at age 9 by my ex-husband (second husband). He was put in prison for 7 years out in 3 ½. Then he fell off the radar. I don’t know where he is and I really don’t want to know. Rotting in hell would be fine with me.
Jenni is a head strong person and won’t take any shit from anyone. She has grown up to be one of those children a parent just sits back in awe, I am extremely proud of her.
Her husband is great also. He puts up with her illness and her hard headedness so he has to be pretty good.

Then there is my youngest and his family. He will be 27 in July. His wife is a few years younger and they have 3 kids. 5, 3 and 2. They are the loves of my life. And here is the problem. The state was called on them and my daughter in law is sure that I had it done. So I cant see my babies. I went from getting them for weeks at a time, seeing them 3 or 4 times a week. To not seeing them at all. My heart is braking every-time I think about it.
I was good enough to live with and help with 3 babies, good enough to give them all of my pay check so that they can make a car payment or insurance. But when they do something that might have hurt the children I am the bad guy. I didn’t call the state I should of many many times but never did. I knew what type of person my daughter-in-law and her mother are and I didn’t want anything to happen where I couldn’t see the children and make sure that they are okay. I would have never let the children be harmed in anyway but I have to see them to make sure they aren’t.
Then it came out that I can’t see my grand children because of my beliefs, I am Wiccan and very proud. I don’t feel I should be judged because of what I believe. I have NEVER done anything in front of my family. I am very private when it comes to my spells, chanting and ceremonies. If you ask me about my faith I will tell you. I don’t force it on anyone just like I don’t want any other forced on me.
These have been my beliefs for as long as I remember as far back as the early sixties (1960s) when my friend and I started meditating and chanting. Like it was just born into us. And in high school I was the weird one that believed in reincarnation and wasn’t afraid to talk about it, and how we would levitate our friends at parties. I was raised in a family that went to church and my parents still do. But when you die and a rise again is reincarnation or becoming a zombie? Then you ascend to heaven. I believe in the Creator and all of his children, brothers, sisters what ever you want to call them.
Mother earth, Father sky, Mother nature, Father moon the Creator made it all for us to love and take care of.
I believe and have strong feelings in what goes around comes around.
PLEASE let me see my grand babies.