PARENTS....

As I have mentioned before my mother is not been well and has been placed in a nursing home. My father is having a very hard time with this because she has been his partner for 68 years. They will celebrate their 65th wedding anniversary in September of 2010. He really doesn't care for the male Nurse or nurses aide to be caring for my mother when she has to be taken care of or toileted. He is the only man that has ever seen her in a state of undressed and he should be the only on the is going to. So when she needs cleaning he gets very nervous when the male nurses aide comes in. There are times when I really believe that he sees her as that young women he feel in love with 68 years-ago. She had fallen once and I flew home to help take care of her, while I was bathing her he came in the room and said "Mommy has the cutest but I have ever seen." he was around 80 at that time.

Well my dad took a pretty bad fall last Monday, he went to the hospital to make sure he didn’t break something. He got 8 stitches on the bridge of his nose, broke his glasses, is missing the tip of his nose and has road rash from his top lip to his forehead. Yes, I know I didn’t mention he landed on his face when he went down. He got an infection in his face and was put into the hospital on Wednesday where he was put on IV antibiotics for this fast moving very dangerous infection. Since he went in he has been having problems with his heart. He stops breathing and his heart rate goes down in the 40's. He is telling everyone that he has died and there was no one there to greet him so he knew he had to come back for "Mommy" the wife that he has loved for so many years.

I really believe that my parents bodies are ready to die, but my parents spirits/souls don’t want to go without the other.

I love you Mom and Dad and when you go I will see you again because it is just the beginning of you next phase of your souls travels.

My Friend Dar

As you live your life you have meet many many people. You have made room in your heart for some of these people, you may have lost contact with some but if it is meant to be they will come back into your life. Once I have a friend I consider them a friend forever. They have gotten a piece of my heart.I have just that type of friend. We have been friend in my heart since 1973. We have lost track of each other and then we find each other and then we are apart again. I am the type of person that if it means hardship or hurt for a friend I will back out of their life so they can get their life together without my influence ( not that I have that much influence).
We met when I started dating her brother. He was my heart and soul, the person that could rock my world with just a look. He is mentioned in one of my other blog entries. Her brother is my sons father. He and I really never talked after all the hurt and hateful words.
I never wanted myself or my son come between them and when I felt we were we would leave and let them work it out. Some of his family has always listened to talk about the fatherhood of my son and it wasn’t their brother. His mother may all the Gods Bless Grannies heart and soul knew the "Timber" was her grandson. Darlene knows but no one could ever get Oney to believe it. I have always wanted him to but there are just some things that are out of ones control. Back then we didn’t have DNA test. I have to believe that deep down in his soul he know, and that there can't be anyway he can ever make that up to his only son and his first born.
Anyway I found Dar on face book and we talked on the land line for hours last night. I learned some joyful thing about everyone and their grandchildren and I learn some things that hurt my heart, I was very sorry to hear that James R died (that is Dars dad) my son was named after him.
I learned that Dars nephews son died a year ago at 15, and that is something I could never imagine happening at such a young life not do to illness just because life was something he couldn’t handle any longer. I remember when he was a little baby.
I just want to say Dar I have thought of you very much in the last 14 years since I left so that there weren't waves. I am sure glad I found you again and I hope at our age we don’t drift apart again.
I love you my friend....Dar Poo